Got most of my stuff done. Bought new lens, apply for my new visa. Started saving some cash. I hope it's not too late..

Everyday I face the same thing. I'm just really tired. I'm afraid I might just let go.

Last christmas I gave u my heart. But this year I gave it away.
But I wanna give it back to you=(
She gave me all she had but I toss it in the trash.
Fuck My Life!

Sigh, fucking emo these few months. Couldn't do things right. I got no time for everything cos i needed the money and i have to work long hours. to support myself. I getting tired.
I got a beautiful girlfriend and yet I did things that disappoint her. Yet she forgives me. I heart dropped. She cried and stuff. I'm ashamed to even see her. Seeing what kind of person I've become.

If I could turn back time, I wish I didn't do those mistakes.

Now I'm sitting alone in this living room, watching tv.

It's been 4 months since I've complete my national service.
Now in the working force, but as far as i can see. The money I earn is either to pay my debts or to party. Sigh, I know I should save some but it's a habit for me to party.

Well many things have happened. Don't really want to elaborate. Everyday I watch the world goes by, I can't think of anything to do. So slowly, I begin to hate myself for being me. I got nothing, seriously nothing to show, give nor take. I'll always be the extra in the show.
I thought I could maintain a healthy relationship, who knows I slowly without realising i'm becoming more of a player. But I meant no harm. But I do ask myself do I really love the person?

Honestly I don't like to play with feelings, it's hurtful. And I understand that real well.

I slowly begin to destroy myself, soon i'll collapse within myself.


And now, lastly. Baby if u ever to give me one more chance. I promise to treat u better. If not I'll just fuck myself and die.