In the past U made me feel so bad in bunk. Yes! In bunk. When I fucking serving NS. Without fail, every wednesday, friday and saturday. U will call me in the middle of the night, drunk. U asked me why I'm not with you. How can I? How I wish I can be there. And I remember something u ONCE told me. U club cos i'm in camp and I can't company you. What!? So I'm like a replacement to u?

And one more thing.. I think I'm the only guy that can take the risk to LET YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND TO SLEEP ON THE SAME BED AS U. Yes, u have no choice or whatever so, it's how i felt u know, those messages u sent? I really don't like it. Just think about it.

Now, that U asked me to work instead of wasting my life, so did I. I worked. And yet again the same thing U said. I don't have time for u. So what if I had the time? I got so much time now, U're out with your girlf or who-so-ever. Then what? what's this? my fault? I work cos U said U had aimless guys, I worked for the money and for my future. But now I think it's useless. I'll just earn what I can and party it away. FUCK MY LIFE!

Here goes my bitter sweet love.

Got most of my stuff done. Bought new lens, apply for my new visa. Started saving some cash. I hope it's not too late..

Everyday I face the same thing. I'm just really tired. I'm afraid I might just let go.

Last christmas I gave u my heart. But this year I gave it away.
But I wanna give it back to you=(
She gave me all she had but I toss it in the trash.
Fuck My Life!

Sigh, fucking emo these few months. Couldn't do things right. I got no time for everything cos i needed the money and i have to work long hours. to support myself. I getting tired.
I got a beautiful girlfriend and yet I did things that disappoint her. Yet she forgives me. I heart dropped. She cried and stuff. I'm ashamed to even see her. Seeing what kind of person I've become.

If I could turn back time, I wish I didn't do those mistakes.

Now I'm sitting alone in this living room, watching tv.

It's been 4 months since I've complete my national service.
Now in the working force, but as far as i can see. The money I earn is either to pay my debts or to party. Sigh, I know I should save some but it's a habit for me to party.

Well many things have happened. Don't really want to elaborate. Everyday I watch the world goes by, I can't think of anything to do. So slowly, I begin to hate myself for being me. I got nothing, seriously nothing to show, give nor take. I'll always be the extra in the show.
I thought I could maintain a healthy relationship, who knows I slowly without realising i'm becoming more of a player. But I meant no harm. But I do ask myself do I really love the person?

Honestly I don't like to play with feelings, it's hurtful. And I understand that real well.

I slowly begin to destroy myself, soon i'll collapse within myself.


And now, lastly. Baby if u ever to give me one more chance. I promise to treat u better. If not I'll just fuck myself and die.

I don't know if i should be angry or what? but sometimes i felt down.., i got many problems, one after another. When will all this shit stop.

I ask u to dig out my heart, to see how much u meant to me.
If u ask me to die with u, together hand in hand, I will.
U complain that I got no time for u, when I have the time, u aren't there.

Is there something on your mind? U should speak it out.

Because if i happen to know something, thing are gonna to get real bad, real bad.

The floor have eyes.

It started with a perfect kiss then,
we could feel the poison set in.

Baby is out of town this week, well guess be hangout with the guys this weekend i guess? Still got a drinking session with ZM!!!!

sigh.., if only one can understand how i felt during those time, those pain can't be describe. Words that are so piercing. Yet I'm per prepared to forgive all, I kept quiet.

I'm gonna soo be missing baby! Hope she's doing well over in tokyo! Love ya baby meet at the airport!