You're the World to me.

2011-01-05T00:26:00.002+08:00

In the past U made me feel so bad in bunk. Yes! In bunk. When I fucking serving NS. Without fail, every wednesday, friday and saturday. U will call me in the middle of the night, drunk. U asked me why I'm not with you. How can I? How I wish I can be there. And I remember something u ONCE told me. U club cos i'm in camp and I can't company you. What!? So I'm like a replacement to u?

And one more thing.. I think I'm the only guy that can take the risk to LET YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND TO SLEEP ON THE SAME BED AS U. Yes, u have no choice or whatever so, it's how i felt u know, those messages u sent? I really don't like it. Just think about it.

Now, that U asked me to work instead of wasting my life, so did I. I worked. And yet again the same thing U said. I don't have time for u. So what if I had the time? I got so much time now, U're out with your girlf or who-so-ever. Then what? what's this? my fault? I work cos U said U had aimless guys, I worked for the money and for my future. But now I think it's useless. I'll just earn what I can and party it away. FUCK MY LIFE!

Here goes my bitter sweet love.

2010-12-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Got most of my stuff done. Bought new lens, apply for my new visa. Started saving some cash. I hope it's not too late..

Everyday I face the same thing. I'm just really tired. I'm afraid I might just let go.

2010-12-27T01:54:00.002+08:00

Last christmas I gave u my heart. But this year I gave it away.
But I wanna give it back to you=(
She gave me all she had but I toss it in the trash.
Fuck My Life!

Sigh, fucking emo these few months. Couldn't do things right. I got no time for everything cos i needed the money and i have to work long hours. to support myself. I getting tired.
I got a beautiful girlfriend and yet I did things that disappoint her. Yet she forgives me. I heart dropped. She cried and stuff. I'm ashamed to even see her. Seeing what kind of person I've become.

If I could turn back time, I wish I didn't do those mistakes.

Now I'm sitting alone in this living room, watching tv.

2010-12-24T01:27:00.002+08:00

It's been 4 months since I've complete my national service.
Now in the working force, but as far as i can see. The money I earn is either to pay my debts or to party. Sigh, I know I should save some but it's a habit for me to party.

Well many things have happened. Don't really want to elaborate. Everyday I watch the world goes by, I can't think of anything to do. So slowly, I begin to hate myself for being me. I got nothing, seriously nothing to show, give nor take. I'll always be the extra in the show.
I thought I could maintain a healthy relationship, who knows I slowly without realising i'm becoming more of a player. But I meant no harm. But I do ask myself do I really love the person?

Honestly I don't like to play with feelings, it's hurtful. And I understand that real well.

I slowly begin to destroy myself, soon i'll collapse within myself.

And now, lastly. Baby if u ever to give me one more chance. I promise to treat u better. If not I'll just fuck myself and die.

2010-07-03T01:57:00.002+08:00

I don't know if i should be angry or what? but sometimes i felt down.., i got many problems, one after another. When will all this shit stop.

I ask u to dig out my heart, to see how much u meant to me.
If u ask me to die with u, together hand in hand, I will.
U complain that I got no time for u, when I have the time, u aren't there.

2010-04-07T03:35:00.002+08:00

Is there something on your mind? U should speak it out.

Because if i happen to know something, thing are gonna to get real bad, real bad.

The floor have eyes.

2010-04-06T04:41:00.002+08:00

It started with a perfect kiss then,
we could feel the poison set in.

Baby is out of town this week, well guess be hangout with the guys this weekend i guess? Still got a drinking session with ZM!!!!

sigh.., if only one can understand how i felt during those time, those pain can't be describe. Words that are so piercing. Yet I'm per prepared to forgive all, I kept quiet.

I'm gonna soo be missing baby! Hope she's doing well over in tokyo! Love ya baby meet at the airport!

2009-09-22T13:53:00.002+08:00

It's always the song to trigger something. But it's somehow a telling to what it's suppose to mean in someone else lives.

=D Be home safe. That's all I can say.
God's bless.

2009-09-22T00:55:00.002+08:00

There goes my long weekend in JGL wasting my time over there. Doing nothing beside the usual driving and SLEEP!

Well it's a good rest from camp, hopefully my so called own long weekend wouldn't be spoilt by them again, I wanna club like an animal woohoo...

And Bon Voyage! Your trip will be good and fulfilling one, Be bless and touched by God's protection

2009-08-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

Yet another day have passed, I'm glad that I'm able to make it through=D
Gedong boys I'll be home anytime=D

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Just wanna say, your appearance brings a new level to my life. But Good things comes to an end. I'm just glad, never fail to bring a smile on me.

2009-08-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

You weren't there anymore...

I do really miss your presence or rather you in person.

Lost my way in this multiple cross road.

2009-08-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

Sometime during training in camp, I thought to myself. I'm really that lousy. I'm puzzled.
People said I'm good but I think otherwise. I still lose out. If you know what I'm talking about. I got no where to stand, probably at the back. Where is stand? Think I shouldn't have even appear.

I remember my aunt said this to me, "You bring nothing but trouble." I remember it well. She asked me why I tattooed I told her cos I like it, but in fact I just try to put all the hurt on my skin. I wouldn't be so silly to kill myself though I have thoughts of doing that sometimes. Since I'm so unwanted.

2009-08-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

What do you think? Maybe things are really over.

And I'll never forget you.
Cos you gave me what is called love.
Which I've forgotten.
Thank you and sorry.

2009-08-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

I think we are still different, we did most of the things together. All still goes to you. I just fucking jealous, really. You get more then what you needed. I could hardly count the numbers. All eyes on you man. really...

Maybe everything is arranged to happen who could have change it.

Well anyways well wishes to you. =)
May you get you want always.

2009-08-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

Alrite reader.., finally all the tough days are gone, but but but.. the reminding 1 year might be even tougher, but with my mates in camp, I think we can make it out just fine=D

I'LL BE BACK SOON!!!

Get my bed ready okay! Needa a new bed sheet haa=P

2009-08-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

I spent a day, counting the days left. Day by day passes, as if nothing out of the ordinary happen. But deep in I still linger the kind of affection. Told myself maybe it isn't gonna work well with me, I suppose?

How my naive wish that someone will build a time machine, but then again what a re suppose to happen will still happen even if I have a ability to change it, so I'm gonna let it be. And see how it goes, sounds laid back but what else can I do?? But seriously sometime I just hate myself fuckin' hate myself really.

I think best for now is to just do my stuff and not to think too much probably nothing gonna work out for me anyway, I give up man, white flag surrender..

(Just what happen, I wondered every single day?)*

Still.. I believe God is still with me, guiding me. Telling me that there is still hope in this world.

2009-08-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

There's many things I don't know and I don't wish to know.
In the end, they just cast me away. Guess they're right, a child picked from the garbage.

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I'm puzzled, should I stay or go? But I really want to stay and move at the same time.
But I don't know uh, I live with the days coming at me.

So right now feeling emo, restless and nostalgic. It's kinda bad to have this kind of feeling added when something bad happen at home. At times I really wanna leave home, I'm tired.

Feels like this blog is the closest person to me the I'll tell my sorrows and envy. Be it a relationship, family, work, crush etc, etc..

Sometimes I asked why am I even born in this world, I can only bring sorrows to other people, can't live with my own life always in controlled and planned, curfew which I hate. Who will know how I feel. Who will? Only God knows. Aleast God gave me the ability to read my future, I can foresee what's gonna happen next. So far nothing good.

Tough live wilson. take care.

2009-08-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
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I guess..

2009-08-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

Living in a world full of sickness. Dying in a world full of pain.
I beg to differ. =)

Live a life with no worry,
Why bother with people looking down on you?
Don't worry about things that haven't happen yet.
Live positively. You'll make it through the day.

Well lastly, good night earthlings.
rest well
miss ya=)

2009-08-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

Like kinda confusing, but I think it's still kinda sweet in a way=)
well that's how I think thou.

2009-08-02T01:39:00.001+08:00

Sigh.. maybe.. I don't know either.
What to do and what to say.

2009-06-20T10:10:00.002+08:00

I can't get my leave. sighh...
I miss your voice, in fact I miss you. The day don't feels right without you.
I miss you my dear.

2009-06-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

When the nights, darken again,
I wonder when will I see you again.
I enjoyed the time we had together,
although it may be short,
But I see it through.
From you, I learnt alot

Starting to appreciate the little things in life.
no matter how tiny it might be.

When I found you...
I miss you.
even with you.

2009-06-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

I love sitting at a nice quiet place where we can talk under the starry night. Just between you and me.

2009-06-08T23:56:00.002+08:00

The past few days is quite an incredible day for me, when I met Michelle, well gonna meet her soon on FRIDAY!

2009-06-07T12:17:00.002+08:00

It's was a boom boom pow night yesterday, initially I thought "tonight won't be the night" in the end.. ^^

well I guess everyone enjoyed partying but it closes damn early.

haha don't know how to continue.., meeting sweetie and the rest in town for movie^^

2009-06-06T11:44:00.001+08:00

I realize NS men are like a "reject" in this society. What have we become? What will become of us after 2 years?

Sigh.., waste of time.

2009-05-25T18:13:00.002+08:00

I swear to god that your eyes are the most mesmerizing thing I ever seen in my life. Yet the time I get to see you is like once 1 month or even lesser.

Monday blue? Well it's book in day for me today woo 4 more days to book out day and PARTY TIME! well pray that I WILL NOT go for course this week or the next argh until I ORD.

Butter Factory on this Friday then Rebel on Saturday? Till then and also a belated Happy 21 to Sheralyn^^ woo next year will be my turn.

2009-05-11T03:50:00.002+08:00

Today is a SUNDAY! it's rare for me to be able to go out on Sundays it feels GREAT!!!

Been hittin' Rebel for weeks it's getting so exciting. So happy to be there but from Tuesday onwards I'll be in camp serving my SOL(shortage of leave) I wonder why they called it SOL, so whatever then for 10 days till like Thursday till it will end. sad=(

So I'll club on the 22th May instead, 1 week of rest and will be back better, stronger and faster!

And also congrats to you for getting your job at NUH=) work hard and also moving on, don't think back. Cos you also sound in a dilemma.

Lastly I need a rest a very very long rest, I HATE CAMP!

bye peeps

2009-05-03T16:30:00.002+08:00

Back to blog ^^

been hitting Rebel for the past few book outs. Every time I enter is a new thing to me. Dance, sweat and some grinding. Overall it's a great place to be in.

Also know a few people in there, they bring me great entertainment^^

Then I think I finally fallen ill, damn haha..

2009-04-26T13:34:00.002+08:00

wow everyday is a wild nite for me in Rebel!!
Well happening during my days in Rebel all the dancing and grinding, very happening indeed specially girls that come unexpected^^

Then I met Clara last friday she's sooo beautiful! and cute too^^ well i wouldn't know if she gave me the green light to carry on. hmm have to try huh.

2009-04-19T13:30:00.003+08:00

Was looking through some photos in myra's fb, i realised we had so much fun, with no worries, when someone out of nowhere gave us a letter and that's when everything turn havoc.

ARGH!

don't talk about ORD now talk bout EOC(emo one corner) now.

When club for the past 2 days is fun, when Powerhouse on the friday and jus yesterday went back reveliming n I agree that the music at Rebel is way better then other places, so we decided to go again next week^^

haha well hope better luck for me next time round^^

2009-03-23T18:00:00.002+08:00

I felt terrible, for everything I did. I guess it's a moment of folly.

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I scroll through the photos we took years back, it felt kinda nice to see that wherever I go I did see you. We walk a long path till we "split" our ways, but I remember you hard. I do miss you now.
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23.03.09
Been a long time since I blog, busy for this whole month so I decided to take a few days off from camp^^

So now back to square one, CLUB CLUB CLUB! living m life ^^ 4th April will commence then re-opening of PLAY well the location is still not known yet, I guess it will be in Clark Quay area.
The lastly got and iPod classic recently 120gb, more then enough space for my songs and video, so using this time to load it up.

well till then again.. ^^

2009-02-07T16:23:00.002+08:00

haha Butter Factory!

It's me and the ghost, haha brother for life!

Me and Ziming outside smoking

2009-02-06T00:28:00.003+08:00

okie I will post the pics taken in Rebel.. mostly is with hwei, zm or u can say with the guys...

Bai and me

Hwei at the back me in green, Ziming beside me and eve infront

We're all SLAVES!

ok i'm looking at another camera

Hwei and his fren who drove us to eat haha

ohh the guy in the black and grey collar is ZM's fren he's a mongollian, don;t how to spell his name... sorry

In the smoke chamber

CHILL!

well that all i think, will post up the one in BF

2009-02-05T23:55:00.003+08:00

Hello again! An unexpected day to come home, booked out on Tuesday, then went Butter Factory on Wednesday with Ziming, Myra and co.

OKIE.. way before Wednesday, on Tuesday after I booked out went to Queensway to shop for clothes! And the happiest and sweetest ting is we go an extra 200$! So Ziming and I shop for new shirts ^^ then each of us got one. Then slack awhile decided to head to town for movie haha, Oh by the way was with Jack but he was depress because he didn't get the 200$, hmm sounds weird cos PR can't the 200$.

Ok back to town, we head to cathay and watch a Hong Kong movie, All's well end's well, and corny movie but quite laughable. End of Tuesday!

Back to Butter Factory, Ziming and I reach Qlark Quay there to find our way there, cos we never been there before. so we wander and wander, then walk to Zouk then back to Double O then.. well practically we cover the whole of Clark Quay. Little do we know we walk past BF TWICE!!!
haha then finally met up with Myra and co. then we walk to there.

It's a great place maybe it's the last night, long Q of the free flow, haha we Q till we "Pek Cek" haha.

I SAW SIR EUGAN! waa damn handsome, he 3 more months till ORD how happy! Forgot to take picture with him. sad...

In a few more hours PARTYING AT DOUBLE O!
cya guys

2009-02-01T02:16:00.002+08:00

Hello fellow blogger ^^ IT'S SUNDAY!!!

Mean the day to book in camp and do the same thing again, but but but.... there more up coming event for me and my peers, firstly Double O this Friday! Was hoping I wasn't in camp so I can go for the ladies on Wednesday.

But still I'm grateful that I can have a whole week of undisturbed rest at home. So I guess it's time I help back to work^^ SOOO.. let the long awaited FRIDAY!! to come R&B ALL NIGHT LONG!

2009-01-30T00:51:00.002+08:00

What's up !? it's been a great long weekend for me out of camp, actually didn't really domuch thing during these days. Went clubbing on a Saturday which was a HUGH mistake! it's retro night, but lucky O Bar plays R&B so around 2plus went up Double O, but the music on both sides are so so.

Then clubbing no. 2 which was on the 28Jan went to Rebel @ Clark Quay my first time there, the location is actually the old Smoove place renovated to Rebel.
Was a great night, LADIES NITE! many girls haha but I try to keep myself from grinding haha I'm shy alrite.
Was there with Ziming, lucky he call in the afternon then I asked him along whahaha... Then along with Myra, Eve and co, and Hwei and co. Thats all quite alot of pretty ladies there.

Well I hope to get your sexy back ladies!! haha okie thats all I guess and I'll try to get some photos up. Meanwhile, GOOD NIGHT!

2009-01-28T02:32:00.002+08:00

Unintentionally i went to your blog, I find you're actually damn hot! maybe it's the angle that you took photos.

Going for course soon this mid Feb. I told myself I can't be the best but I won't be the worst, I motivate myself with this words everyday. So guys in NS keep yourself out of extra, and to those who are going to ORD which is Thomas which you good luck huh.

2009-01-27T00:42:00.002+08:00

Here comes new year, a whole long year ahead for me in NS.., but everyday past is a day to my las day of serving.

Now we will all enjoy celebrating Chinese New Year, in the year of the Ox I will everyone in best health, and those in NS free of extra duty.

2009-01-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

Dear earthlings,

Finally I get my lazy hand to do some blogging, well booking in tmr night, I think I deserve the day off after having so much work done.

But practically doing nothing over the weekends I thought I could go club and stuff, never mind...

And now I'm having another confusion, my heart ache but for whom I ache for? I wish to be embrace by love again, but then I'm afraid I will lost it.

I will always remember the day when we hide for rain in the phone booth, where it interlock our lives, sweet but short, bring tingling feeling to my heart with a little piercing to it. I seem to be used to this feeling, it's like a routine every once in a while. Never ado, I will never forget your care and concern you gave to me, waiting for me to go home together. All I can say now is goodbye for now.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you again.

2009-01-11T17:02:00.003+08:00

Thanks FCUKERS for the early birthday celebration, even though me birthday is on the Monday, still thanks guys this night was great, the music is up, liquor pour through the midnight party.

I thought I can celebrate it with you,
but I couldn't never.

I don't if I can consider myself bad luck, that I have to serve NS for 2 yr while the new batch serve only 1yr 6mths, when they ORD, I'm still severing... SAD NEWS!!!

Well.., SAF..,
what rubbish...

2009-01-04T04:58:00.002+08:00

Why I always feel that, when I fight so hard for a thing I want but in the end it just went to the drain? And now I lost all my motivation in life, everything is so gone. And I'm so so so tired to move on, to carry on with life.

Shit always happen, I told myself, but it's getting too much to handle! Sometimes it really sucks...

Let me slumber it through.

we promise not to let go,
in the end this is what happen.

2009-01-04T04:49:00.001+08:00

A swift ending, it left me bloodlessly dead.

how unexpected, when I thought otherwise. Is god playing a trick on me?

2009-01-03T15:09:00.002+08:00

It's the 3rd day of 2009, wish every can have healthy and wealthy NEW YEAR! and all wishes come true ^^

Nothing new going on in my life, sometime feel kinda sad... Maybe I should get use to this feeling.

In camp will be shifting to new bunk, 4 to each room ^^ haha hopefully can share the room with handsome ZhiMing=)

2008-12-28T18:13:00.001+08:00

Sometime I feel I can really see the sky. Just for the time being I guess...?

2008-12-25T13:57:00.002+08:00

What a wonderful Christmas eve I had, went out with honey to watch IP man at town, so we take a walk down orchard, where we had Sake Sushi! well was a short day but honey is working tomorrow so need go home so send her home before meeting Fcuker's!

Hmm as expected at Boat Quay lots' of crowd, enjoying the eve's night and countdown. At first I could drink but it seem that we're doing nothing. But it's okie I could spend my day with Fcuker's.

Booking back camp later on man, how I wish I never had to book in back again. Well merry Christmas and a happy new year!

2008-12-14T13:03:00.002+08:00

Training to soldiers, fight for our land,
2 year of our time,
fucking waste of time,
have you ever wondered?
why must we serve?
Not cause we love our land,
but we lan lan have to serve, have to serve*

Looking all around us,
People everywhere,
children have fun, while we are holding gun.
have you ever wondered?
why must we serve?
Not cause we love our land,
but we lan lan have to serve, have to serve*

Stand up!
Fight for our rights,
C'mon everybody! Do your part.
Do it for your fucking rights... HAH!

Suddenly I tot for this stupid song, so i decided to change the lyrics alittle.
and SHIT I'M BOOKING IN TODAY AGAIN!! FUCKING HELL, FUCKING WASTE OF TIME.
i rather not have the experience in NS, I feel so tired everyday, stuck in the cave, fucked up superiors, everything is fucked up.

Always in camp *see I use "always"* as I needed some help from higher ranks, their reply will be, "my fault?", "My problem", "suck thumb la." So why the fuck they ask us to sound off if we need help, rubbish people. Hope they fucking rot in hell soon!

HUMANITY IS GONE! SINGAPORE IS CRAZY!

2008-12-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

Hello world my 10 days of block leave is ending soon, I so used to this life then army life.

Every Singaporean male is rob of their 2 years of prime time where they can study and earn then suddenly we had to let go of everything to "serve" the nation, for me I would say we are force to serve and force the hold the rifle. Everything is forced, who came up with the idea to serve NS?

Well never mind about that, in 2 days time hell time starts all over again. SHIT!

2008-12-10T13:07:00.002+08:00

Because a girl like you is impossible to find.

I finally find this song getting the meaning when you have the meaning.

2008-12-08T17:46:00.002+08:00

The time is coming on me so rapidly, I never got a chance to take a breathe. If everyday can be at a stood still, where it's time I can finally rest and forget every single thing.

This coming weekend will be a very special one for me, just for you and me. I will remember it well and good. Your hints I will take the chances.

2008-12-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

Finally we will meet again...

2008-11-22T18:52:00.002+08:00

10 more days to POP!

I really hate the feeling of leaving home, actually I should be going out with my friends cos it's a saturday night. But cause of some stupid mistake I need to go back today. I hate being in camp, I miss my family, especially my mom, dad, aunt, my brother and my sister in law.

Why must we serve? I use to sing it everyday, Why? I don't why, a day more at home makes me feel more together, right now I feel so scattered, suddenly feeling so lonely.

2008-11-09T03:42:00.000+08:00

I think I can't go on, so stressed. I'm afraid I can't go on much longer.

2008-10-27T16:43:00.003+08:00

Booking in later, feel kinda tired and sad cos I'll miss home again, training is going to be more and more tougher I'm afraid I will fall someday.

But I only want to book out every saturday on time to go home meet my friends and family.

I pray to God that no trouble will find me.

2008-10-09T04:42:00.001+08:00

Goodbye beautiful home, and welcome to hell.

2008-10-07T06:48:00.003+08:00

Everyday When I make my hair I will see a photo of you and me, I remember how were those days, traveling together, dinner, work and go home together.

How I wish everything will come back to me again. But it cannot done already when it already too late to turn back.

I always loved when you wonder in your own space and your sleepy voice. You had everything I ever needed in my life when I took everything for granted.

I wonder why you did that.

And Alex if you ever read this I'm not a bisexual!!!

2008-09-23T04:18:00.005+08:00

2008 13 Sept St James & Mos - Smoove

It was a great day out at the club, actually was meeting Liu at vivo at but instead he came to me block to fetch me^^
haha how nice...
So we entered SJ at around 9plus then Liu was hungry then we went Mac for burgers.
Then we left for MOS at 12

Thats Jim Bean I was holding, behind me is my ride
Welcome to MTV ride!

Liu wanted a shot too lolz

Okie this was taken at MOS I appear to be quite awake

Me and behind is the smoking room which I enter often

In this pic there is Yi Hong, Ben, me and Liu

The guy in cap is Johnny he's the birthday boy here

Okie this mean IT'S DAMN PACKED IN THE CAGE!!!

well not much picture was taken later on cos Liu was quite drunk and he left home at2 then I party on with the rest till like 4. well at least it was fun!

2008-09-22T06:38:00.003+08:00

What's on Play! NIGHT...!!

I think that's QQ's finger behind?

Me and Myra

Zhou Hui and Me

Smoking break

Me and QQ

Me and Kun

Well I kinda like to club now it's a place for me to unwind. Even thought I used to club alot in the past. Now is the time!
Hmm let me think what we drank...
1 Jar Vodka-Sprite
2 Jar Vodka-Redbull
1 Jar Chivas-Greentea
20 shots of Tequila

I think that's not quite enough..,

The Next day
Sentosa - Palawan Beach

Well this is the only photo that contain me inside haha. What are we doing? well Firsty trying to grab a few coconuts, then stuck the volleyball then Eric's slippers haha
EPIC FAIL!!! THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU"RE HAVING HANGOVERS

2008-09-20T12:54:00.003+08:00

I party so much at Play! last night that I pretty much lost my voice. Slight headache when I wake up.

Party Like a ROCKSTAR!

2008-09-19T00:45:00.000+08:00

Wanted to cry my heart out, in a corner, when there is no one around.

2008-09-16T04:02:00.002+08:00

Went to meet Ah beng and KL, at JE planning to watch The days at entertainment but the shows started 20 minutes ago so we took a cab down Jurong point to watch, It was a really good show, about the life of the director, all about gangster and stuff. Good show.

Really, I'll still smile without you

Hmm I felt sad cos everything is about me, I don't why I'm at fault sometimes and somethings is not what I want it to happen, you said fate and yes it's true. Why I choose to ignore cos I don't wanna to give the wrong idea so... never mind forget it.

2008-09-14T05:24:00.002+08:00

St James to MOS.., I heard house, RnB, Techno, Rock and trance. Johnnie walker, vodka and tequila shot, everything is just perfect for the night of babes, a drink for them a kiss for you 36 shots for them and they're at your home.

One thing's for sure the night is always long when there is babes, hot and seductive. Always wish for the night would last more then 12 hours..

Indeed a fun night.

2008-09-08T03:09:00.002+08:00

The kindest word can be the most dangerous, Don't expect anything but once gone it's gone. No false hope played. Because an unwilling love will only bring another tragedy. If you want an answer this is it.

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Last saturday went out with the SaBros. Haa yeah met around 4 at Queens, cos Louis wanted to make customize T-shirt, for us and his beloved. okie i try to post the the pic real soon cos I'm short of time so soon will be posted..

Nites earthlings, let hope 10th of sept got nothing happen

2008-09-03T02:00:00.002+08:00

Do not assume cause it will never happen again. Human once made a mistake and never repeat that same mistake again.

Who wrote this song that is so suitable to breakup?
But it hard to tell who felt sad,
and it difficult to say goodbye.

2008-08-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

When you're unable to forget him like I'm unable to forget her.
Or all this time it's just a one sided love?

I don't love you like I do yesterday.

2008-08-26T01:32:00.002+08:00

Will you turn around to look at me one last time. . . ?

My heart aches each you when you're told about. Sometime I feel like crying out loud.

When you're so silent in your good-byes. . .

2008-08-18T03:14:00.002+08:00

It hurts alot when people remind me of you. Just when I'm about to forget you.
But when they say to me it clear that I still loved you...

It's goodbye...

2008-08-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of being all alone.., the solitary moment makes me wanna leave home.

2008-08-10T14:12:00.001+08:00

When you have gone opposite.

Smokes a cigarette*

2008-08-03T07:08:00.002+08:00

Very very long ago...

Sometime I believe you gave me a reason to live on, I remember how I first hugged you and where. I only have a simple wish, to hear your breath when I wake up every morning.

Till now I don't what really happen and what ever I've done, I'm very sorry.
I never regret knowing you, I kept our memories deep inside my heart. I never hope to turn back but I only want to do back what I've not done good for you.

Right now, we're living both different lives. Having different hopes and dreams. Do we still remember each other like we used to.

I wish you all the best.

I still have the dance dream.
Almost every night I slept,
maybe I missed you alot.

2008-08-03T07:02:00.002+08:00

If you never done anything wrong why afraid of being blamed?
Why be afraid for letting people know what you want to say?
Stop hiding, your name isn't written here so point blinding at others, don't mind other business, care yours while it still not known.

An advice, just keep quiet. Truth is not looking up high, but looking down tolerating humiliation. Humble.

2008-07-30T17:55:00.002+08:00

Am I ready to fall in love again?
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Actually I don't what girls wants, whats the main quality they want a guy to have?
Car? Face? Popularity? What else?

I recently found out from a friend that his friend has a GF, this GF think that paying for her handphone bills is caring. Going for expansive dinners, going tour without paying anything. Wow I'm amazed, He said his friend can't survive he's working 3 jobs now, just to support her, luckily she's those who will take bus and train, imagine if it's cab.
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Was wondering, cos I remember Timberland's song The way I are.
But well everyones life ain't getting better.

**Random
I dreamt of you last night,
I seem to miss you alot.
I remember a part that we when to the club.
Eggs? And ya the dance.

2008-07-29T04:49:00.003+08:00

These few days I felt quite happy. I don't why also, well maybe somethings gonna happen? My bike? haha probably I guess. It been too long already.

I got a very bad new for myself, I've put on weight! around 55kg now CRAP soon it will be 60kg. Sad must go jogging soon, surprising I don't smoke as much as I do last time, wow huh cos I forgot to smoke.

I'M PLAYING SIMS 2 so it made me forgot to smoke, but the kick still comes.

My goal now is to get my 4 pacs haha why 4 cos it already 1 pac.

Hmm it now almost 5am so I going to bed and wake up to do some exercise.

*Random*
Every corner u search you can't find her.
Because you've already found her.
Right from then beginning,
She's already the destined one.
**She asked me to treasure it.

2008-07-25T06:49:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching Cloverfield again..

Darn neat movie, everything suit, almost perfect!
I hope they would make a sequel of it, it's still alive alrite!
yet American own monster!

2008-07-23T04:30:00.001+08:00

Man this is the hottest song I ever heard, I LOVED IT! Apologize and Unfaithful Remix.
This girls is smart!

2008-07-23T03:36:00.002+08:00

I get to think of some question to answer myself. Kinda funny thou.

1) What's the craziest thing you wanna do?
Sit beside a pro street racer and let him drive through the freeway.

2) What's the craziest and the lamest thing you have done?
Got drunk and do stupid things.

3) If you found and signed cheque on the floor which is a billion dollars, what will you do?
Get the cash out duh.

4) Then with that money what will you do?
Get my parents to have a bigger house.

5) Do you ever think you are a gay or lesbian?
Never. I did think what a gay gonna do.

6) A crush on a same sex?
I wouldn't know and I don't wanna know. haha!

7) If God gave you a change to change something about, what is it?
I want a robot brain, kinda like a A.I. about the analyze thing at an instance.

8) What's your wish for you son or even grand grand son or daughter?
I wish they will live some where safe, peaceful and healthy.

9) Imagine a new earth.
Certainly not this earth cos it's dying!!

10) If the world your born in is not like present, how you like it to be?
hmm like in those games like Final Fantasy not so hi-tech but have the technology to go to other planet and stuff.

11) What you want the most?
Peace and silent.

12) Are you realistic or you still live in a fantasy world.
Sometimes.., sometimes... =)

13) If you are a criminal on death sentence and you escape from prison what you gonna do?
KILLING SPREE!!

14) What are the many things you always HATE about your country?
In Singapore, I hate ERP gantry, GST, TAX, expansive life style and THE FREAKING SHOPS CLOSES AT 10!!

15) Lastly are you happy now.
Certainly not, cos I live in Singapore you should know why.

Okie this are some stuff I ask myself and I answered maybe some of you guy might wanna try it, no harm just sound out your views eh.

2008-07-22T17:47:00.000+08:00

I must be determine!! Good luck to myself.
125z Here I come

2008-07-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

Some friends are meant to be,
some are not.
Some friends treat us like treasures.
but some do not.
We only want a friend to understand us,
not to treat us like some garbage.
To vent their anger.

You tell others to stop bitching around.
Well why not talk about yourself.
Selfish bitch, are lesser then a bitch I can say.
Your words are like a rose but it bring thorns.

I begin to look down on you,
cos you made me look down on you.

2008-07-16T23:38:00.002+08:00

As I start the bike,
some image suddenly came to me,
my dear friend.

77 days have passed but,
I still remember you.
though we only went out a few time.
But then time together is always filled with laughter,
everyone loves you and you loved us.

As said the chain might be broken but I know one day we will meet again.
Cos right where I'm standing, you're not far away. Just a few feet away.
Till we meet again Miki^^
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Many years have passed,
seems that it's only a day.
A day consist 24 hours,
yet sometime it's like 25 hours.
Why today is will always be yesterday?
Cos tomorrow will be today again.
Don't hate that we got less time,
but appreciate it.

We are lucky to have 24 hours to spent,
7 days a week, without any trouble nor suffering.
Spent some time to Stop and Stare.
Just like song does.
You wonder why you're moving but you go nowhere.
Wonder why you're here not there.
As it goes by everything is the same.
It how you choose to go.
Not as to be directed to go.

The traffic is always green,
only weather you want it to be red,
and you stop to think and look.
People might push you,
but you got the rights to stop or move.

Just think to live happily,
rich or poor.
Somethings never changed.

2008-07-16T03:59:00.002+08:00

A simple wish that was never granted for me.
As I always took this wish for granted.
As time pass this wish started to fade,
it always happen so fast that when I wanna grab is it slips away.
Just like time which is one of it I took for granted,
when I know it's gone it's already too late.
When I put my heart to it, it simply disappear.
I never knew what happened.
And I never want to know what happened.

The time for me now is running short.
Soon I will have no time,
no freedom and no life.
Eternal boredom, just like the life draining off me when I light a cigarette.

All I wished for was a little love.
Just a little bit of love and I'm happy.

2008-07-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry, I guess we're not meant to be. Maybe friends will do.

2008-07-14T17:27:00.002+08:00

I hope it's not a mistake again, cos I'm really tired of it. I will see God wants to bless me or wanna leave me alone. Furthermore if it's a success I hope it will be the last one, really I do.

2008-07-13T05:32:00.002+08:00

Yet it just another restless night..., As I stared my computer screen for hours, doing nothing. Maybe I should do some training before my NS. Let's enjoy my remaining days. Worst has yet to come which I hope it's not the worst.

Suddenly loneliness struck me again, How I wish I have a little more time, just a little more. Maybe I've wasted too much time on unnecessary thing which need not done in the first place. If not I have got what I wanted so much.

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I know you will never come back.
I tried waiting but you never came.

2008-07-12T05:08:00.002+08:00

How the nights past away is becoming more difficult, maybe there is no aim for tomorrow. And the yesterday always looks like today, tedious or a breeze? But all I could say it's very lonely to said it alone.

The room always sounded empty no matter how hard I tried to make it noisy, music, shows, movie etc, etc.. always the same.

2008-07-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

One day a person ask me when is the happiest day of your life? I reply When I get rich la! The man said to me my happiest day will be the day I see my grandson walks and call me grandpa. I was surprise by his words, he said nothing in this world can ever match what you always cared for and then to the wealth you will gain. Wealth can't follow you to your grave. Only that moment of memory everything can pass on.

Wealth isn't everything, I GUESS....?

LOL

2008-07-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

today is Miki's 19th brithday.., Louis and I went down to "celebrate" with him. I hop he will like this little celebration we had for him.

Sure miss him everytime we have chalet and stuff.
miss ya bro

2008-07-05T04:09:00.002+08:00

The day passes very fast and painful. It a punishment to look at this life now, everything seems to go wrong. All direction is lost, the day no longer felt enjoyable.

2008-07-03T03:24:00.002+08:00

I guess we are not of importance to some people. While we treasure friendship so dearly and be it can be cleanly forgotten. How sad...
Well never mind, least we know we did done something and it's done.

2008-07-01T13:46:00.002+08:00

I really started to think Singapore is a very very very VERY boring place to live in. Imagine everything closed at 10pm, and the latest would be in Orchard Cine, which ends around 1:30am during weekdays and weekends around 4:30am. And what can we do? WATCH SOME FREAKING MOVIE!! and watch a movie now is a pain too the ticket are also expansive, from 9.50$ to 10$ then to 10.50$.

I really wish Singapore can be a more exciting place, everything is so strict, rules and stuff. Life can be real hard at times.

ok to end this I wanna say EVERYTHING IS FREAKING BORING!!

2008-06-30T15:32:00.002+08:00

Sorry bro I realize that I own U this.. so here goes.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Hmm I think around 30? But I never come across marriage, I might stay single?

2. Study hard or play hard?
C'mon PLAY HARD!! study? mayb a little

3. Who is the person you can trust the most?
My brothers who else.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
hmm 50/50

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Live in Australia and be RICH there!

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
I seen a fews time so I believe

7. What is your goal for this year?
Get my bike license

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
U mean in death?

9. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yeah but no on the other hand, it can be short lived.

10. What feeling do you love the most?
Being happy

11. What feeling do you hate the most?
Boring-ness

12. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Kindhearted, honest and pleasant looking

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
hmm to be honest no, not all friends are the ones I can cherish

14. Do you believe in GOD?
nope, I'm free thinker

15. Who do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My life.

16. Who do you hope to be there with you always?
A very close half

17. Who are your bestfriends?
My brothers are my bestfriends and my bestfriends are my brothers

18. Who cares you the most?
Myself, I'm not being selfish alrite.

19. Who do you think deserve your love?
Anybody who wants to be loved

20. Are you willing to sacrifice your happiness for the one you love?
I'm ready to do anything for the ones I love.

2008-06-30T14:11:00.003+08:00

Diablo 3 !!!

But when will it be release in Singapore, there isn't a date to it so gonna listen for news eh.
The game play is same but is fully 3D and almost look like WOW, then in the news there will be 5 classes and the only known is barbarian and Witch Doctor, and the good thing is you can choose the gender for each character.
I'm hoping it will be out by the end of next month and my computer would be able to support it? I hope so.

2008-06-26T17:18:00.003+08:00

Okie somemore photos..,

Me and Gary^^
Saw this sign on the way up the the mountains,
There is plenty of this kind of inn along the way

Hmm this was taken by Gary's uncle it one of the building up in the mountains
Look at my face, it said "Geez! quick I'm freaking cold!!"

Urrr hello I'm trying to cook here, haha the uncle drove a Toyota Land Cruiser
nice ride me as I was sitting in the last row so my butt really hurt cos of the long hours.

Well one the way up where there are many nice sight but I couldn't take cos was drivin..,
place like Digger's creek, A huge dam, and the lake I tell you. the lake's water is crystal clear.
very beautiful I regret that I can't take a snap of it.
well maybe another trip I will try to snap it.

2008-06-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

I decided to add a few more photos I took in Australia

I took it when I'm going to Central, oh and the train is all double decker.
nice eh? I think Singapore should do this.

In central, buildings after buildings

This is the cinema, special eh?

This is where most Asian will hang out..

2008-06-24T22:37:00.004+08:00

HOWS THAT!!! haha

okie we here in Burwood, nice place to shop but not cheap eh

Snow mountains, ITS SNOW DAMN IT!!
its real cold and it snow abit and the wind are chilling to the bones

okie this is chunky isn't cute? but he used to pee in the bedroom so...

ohh look it the mysterious boy in skinnies.. haha that me la I'm very cold!

hmm it isn't a good view of the snow mountains but just to show
oh those building are shops and ski park.

Caution! Never ever wear skinnies here, If it get wet your leg will froze ya

okie this is where i stayed Judith st, near to breala station.
guess what me and my friend is doing...

Well going home alrdy..

haha actually there is more pic but I put up some only haha wanna see more come find me..
Hope i can go back australia buring summer.
till then CHEERS BUDDIES!

2008-06-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hey hey I just got back from Australia yesterday I got to say just one thing its SERIOUSLY HOT IN SINGAPORE! even at night.
Well I had fun there, everyone is great and I love Australia, hope I can go there anytime soon. Hoping to go there by summer time, BEACH AND BEER! sound fun to me. Hot chicks yah? haha

I'll soon put up some photos I took there meanwhile take care!

2008-06-04T10:18:00.003+08:00

This morning I suddenly felt that I'm living a very terrible life.

Family begin to put stress on me, distrust, pressure and neglect. Do theyknow what I want? Do they think they love me alot?
Love is just a SHIT to me. Don't disgust yourself to say that you love me. I know you actually hate me, well let me tell I WAS TESTING YOU ALL.. So YOU LIKE TESTING ME IN THE PAST RIGHT!

well okay I tried to forgive and forget, I done it once twice and countess time, making myself to forgive, but yet all I got was disappointment. You always used thing to succumb me, rather your mistakes, I'm always covering for you what do I get for you is endless scolding.

Do I have the rights to piss off? CANNOT? JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE A FCUKING ADULT?
Please I got my own thinking, I live my own time and I die my own time.

And lastly all your advice I never once took it.
HATE!... FCUKING HATE!

2008-06-04T05:43:00.001+08:00

Yet another friend because of bike landed in hospital..,
He's in ICU now he condition is really bad.., I still pray that he will pull thru it.
Go!!! LUFFI!

2008-05-28T21:26:00.001+08:00

where have you gone to? are you alrite there bro??
our cloud above seems to be grey all the time.
take care of urself.
miki

2008-05-26T17:13:00.006+08:00

Thanks to Myra as she helped us to make this video dedicated to Miki!
thanks bro =)

The lose of him has sadden us alot, as i see the video i remember how I met him and then last time I saw him.
Yes thou the chain might be broken but when we meet again it will link again.
So bro take good care of urself, up above I know you're watching out for us, down below we pray for you.

Rest In peace
Miki