Yet another day have passed, I'm glad that I'm able to make it through=D
Gedong boys I'll be home anytime=D

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Just wanna say, your appearance brings a new level to my life. But Good things comes to an end. I'm just glad, never fail to bring a smile on me.

You weren't there anymore...

I do really miss your presence or rather you in person.

Lost my way in this multiple cross road.

Sometime during training in camp, I thought to myself. I'm really that lousy. I'm puzzled.
People said I'm good but I think otherwise. I still lose out. If you know what I'm talking about. I got no where to stand, probably at the back. Where is stand? Think I shouldn't have even appear.

I remember my aunt said this to me, "You bring nothing but trouble." I remember it well. She asked me why I tattooed I told her cos I like it, but in fact I just try to put all the hurt on my skin. I wouldn't be so silly to kill myself though I have thoughts of doing that sometimes. Since I'm so unwanted.

What do you think? Maybe things are really over.

And I'll never forget you.
Cos you gave me what is called love.
Which I've forgotten.
Thank you and sorry.

I think we are still different, we did most of the things together. All still goes to you. I just fucking jealous, really. You get more then what you needed. I could hardly count the numbers. All eyes on you man. really...

Maybe everything is arranged to happen who could have change it.

Well anyways well wishes to you. =)
May you get you want always.

Alrite reader.., finally all the tough days are gone, but but but.. the reminding 1 year might be even tougher, but with my mates in camp, I think we can make it out just fine=D

I'LL BE BACK SOON!!!

Get my bed ready okay! Needa a new bed sheet haa=P

I spent a day, counting the days left. Day by day passes, as if nothing out of the ordinary happen. But deep in I still linger the kind of affection. Told myself maybe it isn't gonna work well with me, I suppose?

How my naive wish that someone will build a time machine, but then again what a re suppose to happen will still happen even if I have a ability to change it, so I'm gonna let it be. And see how it goes, sounds laid back but what else can I do?? But seriously sometime I just hate myself fuckin' hate myself really.

I think best for now is to just do my stuff and not to think too much probably nothing gonna work out for me anyway, I give up man, white flag surrender..

(Just what happen, I wondered every single day?)*

Still.. I believe God is still with me, guiding me. Telling me that there is still hope in this world.

There's many things I don't know and I don't wish to know.
In the end, they just cast me away. Guess they're right, a child picked from the garbage.

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I'm puzzled, should I stay or go? But I really want to stay and move at the same time.
But I don't know uh, I live with the days coming at me.

So right now feeling emo, restless and nostalgic. It's kinda bad to have this kind of feeling added when something bad happen at home. At times I really wanna leave home, I'm tired.

Feels like this blog is the closest person to me the I'll tell my sorrows and envy. Be it a relationship, family, work, crush etc, etc..

Sometimes I asked why am I even born in this world, I can only bring sorrows to other people, can't live with my own life always in controlled and planned, curfew which I hate. Who will know how I feel. Who will? Only God knows. Aleast God gave me the ability to read my future, I can foresee what's gonna happen next. So far nothing good.

Tough live wilson. take care.

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
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I guess..

Living in a world full of sickness. Dying in a world full of pain.
I beg to differ. =)

Live a life with no worry,
Why bother with people looking down on you?
Don't worry about things that haven't happen yet.
Live positively. You'll make it through the day.

Well lastly, good night earthlings.
rest well
miss ya=)

Like kinda confusing, but I think it's still kinda sweet in a way=)
well that's how I think thou.

Sigh.. maybe.. I don't know either.
What to do and what to say.