I sometimes felt very hurtful, not because of what I lost. People around me send that message that I know it's meant to myself. I tried hard to control my emotions. Yet in the end I can't really do it, just under the blanket, when nobody is around I let it all out. I really don't feel good, although I knew I had to forget it.
Cos piercings words tore through my heart, what I done so far seems to be so far off. Never mind. It's okie maybe after I really let it out.