Ahh i hate sleepless nights, been going on for weeks. I think I only will sleep when the sunrise, irritating isn't it. Is there anyway to help me to sleep in the night, it feel like I'm a vampire, gosh.
Is it so obvious? haha i guess next time I shouldn't show it too much, without much emotions.
Thanks, but i can get through this though it seems that some matter are unavoidable. Maybe I should change how I look at things more... differently. Perhaps?
IF SHOULD YOU READ THIS,
I THINK THERE IS NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT.
NOR TO FEEL GUILTY,
WHAT I WANT TO BE, IS WHAT I WANTED.
NOT FORCED.
THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO BE SAD ANYMORE.
THE LETTER I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GIVE IS HIDDEN IN THE DRAWER,
SLOWLY BEING FORGOTTEN, SO AS MY EXISTENCE,
BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW IN YOUR HEART I MEANT NOTHING MORE.
WILL WE EVER TO CROSS PATHS AGAIN?
OR YOU HAVE ALREADY ON SHORE?
I PUT DOWN THAT HOPE, ASIDE.
BUT SERIOUSLY THINKING, HOPELESS STILL COME ACROSS.
I WILL GIVE UP, AND YOU WILL GO.
MAYBE THAT DAY I HOPE FOR NEVER COME TRUE.
IT'S ALL ONLY A SILLY DREAM I WAITED FOR
Confused yet cleared, lifeless still moving. Is this the way I wanted it?
The events are showing me that, what I been through is always the same, every single details, every words all come together.
I really don't wish to have another period of time where I almost lost myself to everything, I really still can't forget everything so easily because it's so deeply imprinted on my memories. I'll try, try to forget everything, including you.
Ohh surprisingly..! seems like there would be a nice show coming up.
watch out bro, it might be you, hahaha take care huh. Calm before a storm, gosh I love these words haha.
What can one do when there is none to turn to?
Where can one seek refuge when storms comes?
Where can one heart be when it is lost?
Where do he seek for the missing pieces?
Hmm.., my pace is getting slower, been looking for jobs and it seems to be so difficult to get one. Life really sucks, seriously. Even if i got my license i wonder how I'm gonna get my bike.
I gonna go crazy soon, let hope everything can just go smoothly.
Its a difficult time for me. No one to turn to, I guess I'll try to get out of it somehow?
Do you know which movie can bring you to tears easily? I guess for me is my all time favorite Forrest Gump, I don't know maybe its a story that touches the heart. How a person can preserve love into everything he does. We have much to learn.
I remember his saying, We got to put past behind to move on. True enough. I really cried watching this show, it's the best.
終于說出口 - 小宇
你終于說出口
其實你早就已經不愛我
為什么要低著頭
你知道這玩笑騙不倒我
可是這不是玩笑
是要逃避你離開我的理由
我還能做什么
你已經不愛我
我一直都愛著你
難道這還不夠
我還要做什么
你才不離開我
我知道你已無心再繼續看著我
一心想離開我
我終于也說出口
其實很愛你 但從沒認真說過
或許是我的錯
多在乎你卻只放在心中(Yeah)
不要問我為什么
因為愛你這就是我的理由
我還能做什么
你已經不愛我
我一直都愛著你
難道這還不夠
我還要做什么
你才不離開我
我知道你已無心再繼續看著我
沒什么需要被原諒
我笑得有些牽強
你知道我總是能夠假裝不難過
Oh不想看你那么累
多希望再給我機會
顫抖著我的手
握住的只是風
我還能做什么
你已經不愛我
我一直都愛著你
難道這還不夠
我還要做什么
你才不離開我
我知道你已無心再繼續看著我
一心想離開我
oh no no...
Best song i ever heard from Xiao Yu.
I sometimes felt very hurtful, not because of what I lost. People around me send that message that I know it's meant to myself. I tried hard to control my emotions. Yet in the end I can't really do it, just under the blanket, when nobody is around I let it all out. I really don't feel good, although I knew I had to forget it.
Cos piercings words tore through my heart, what I done so far seems to be so far off. Never mind. It's okie maybe after I really let it out.
Do I need to do anymore things because you don't love me anymore?
While I love you ain't it still not enough?
What do I have to do to make you not to leave me?
While I already know you purposely avoid me,
in your heart you wanted to leave me.
I pretended as though nothing has happen. Now I will focus on my goals, so I can accomplish dreams that I never imagined.
Some path never seem so bright. Hold on to whatever I have now.
Some dream shattered, all I need to do is to pick the pieces up. Its better to lose abit then to lose it completely. My current path is is partly darken yet its clear to me some things I have to do.
Okie I posted a new song on my blog and I think it's a great song, from Breaking Benjamin, title, Diary of Jane. The album is Phobia
Listen to it and you'll know the meaning of the song. Ok here's the lyrics.
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
No!
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
theres a fine line between love and hate
and i dont mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane
Sigh.., sometimes it's hard to accept a sudden changes but what to expect?
So please to any couple, love them more, respect each other. It's hard to find a best friend, even more difficult to find a good lover.
Sometimes, being friend can be more then a lover.
Lesser chance of being hurt.
When you're happy I'm contented.
When you're down, I'm your shoulder.
I just stand in between to should I go or not.
How I missed those times. I really regretted so much that it hurt so much that I almost came to tears. Nobody can ever understand a person heart when there is so little to show. I want to turn back time.