The day close as to a few hours.., will God be on my side? or He wants me on my own?
I just wish He could bless me, I want it to be my one and the last one. If I were to fail a second time, I think it's time I should give up and be gone on my own.
I was played my my devil side asking me not to, my angel side was to weak to resist and to give in, causing me to lost many chance God gave me, I should was I was too over-confident at that point of time.
The appearance of a person may change the other party's thinking, maybe I was thinking too much or it is? who knows.
Everyone is concern about it telling me to give it a try, I was too scared, no confident and I know I might not be able to continue going. Why? I wonder.
True enough, I dare to say in my heart, she's one for me. Thinking again I may not be the one for her. We are on different level, with bright future and I was left in the slump, struggling to climb out of the pit.
She told me once about her. There are many thing in life that are unpredictable yet unexpectedly it happen to you, should you be able to take it and you got to have the courage to put it down, that's why there a period of time that she's very down. 2 years is a very long time. At that time I was thinking her story was like mine, as if I'm the guy in her story. I truly regret alot.
So I was saying no matter what I must have that bit more of courage to show her. It's that bit of confident I wanted so much to express myself. I shan't keep it in my heart anymore if not when I really lost it I will really regret it for life, like I did years before.No God in this world can help you defeat your enemy,
which is you yourself. The greatest enemy