Today the mood is rather heavy for me, as I know my mom was going for a operation, in the evening, after dinner with eve, she and I went to TTS.
My aunt ring me up saying that my mom wanted to see me, then I suddenly got really scared, I tried to calm myself down, as I slowly reach to the ward I saw my mom lying on the bed looking really really weak. I remove the bandage patch on her neck I saw a line of stitches, blood still coming out, my heart really drop.
I nearly cried but I try not to.

But anyway she's fine now, I hope^^ let god bless her with good health.
And thanks for the company ya, aleast now I don't feel so down.

As I stand on my balcony, I looked out I see a peaceful town I lived in.
So quiet and peaceful, as if nothing can break the silent except for some passing cars.

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I enjoy the company with you, progressing fast. Spending time chatting knowing each other more, hearing your life. I wonder how from a totally stranger to someone that I can be so close to confident in.
Like I said life is full of wonder, waiting for people to open it's window.

I should believe in myself, if not how can anyone believe me? You're correct, from today onwards I believe in everything I do, never look down on myself.

=) a big thanks to you.
What an enjoyable night!
Chat, food, movie and walks.

My dream are filled with images of you, we were together.
Maybe because I yearn too much about you, because I missed you too much and because I loved you too much.
Yes I do, seriously now I think more differently.

No matter how many days have passed, each day seem to be more and more warmer, almost you feel no distance in between.

There are many times where chances are given and it just slipped away.
I can't get hold of it.

The times together are very fun and enjoyable. I never expect to be able to know so much about you, everyday we are closer to each other. Thats what I think.
Probably someday we are together, well thats when I love you. Can't get you off my mind.

I only regret not to be able to give you a comfortable life. But you really change my whole life, making me more motivated to do things I think it's a waste of time, decide for my future. But soon I'll be able to get my life going on and going up big.

As day goes by I've grown tired, but when ever i see you, all the weariness went off.
Sometimes I though I may be dreaming but, it's true.
I'll do as I promise, I'll take up this challenge to overcome myself.

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We seem to be trying to tell each other things but we hold back. Not just any other things, to express oneself to be exact. As we gaze the stars together, in my mind I force myself to have the courage. Little by little I was in your life a little closer.
So everyday makes a special day. Everyday I do miss you.

This is the song by Jay, translated in english

我 不 配


This street is too crowded
Too many people have secrets
There is condensation on the glass, who is concealed in the past?
The emotion on your face
Is restoring that period of rain
This alley is too warped, we can't get back into the story

These days are no longer green
Mottled with a few words again
Leaving me behind with empty memories in the big house
The seats in the movie theater
Are separated very far apart
Feelings without scenes together, you're playing chess with yourself

Still it's too late to carefully write down things about you
Describing how I love you
Yet you smile and leave me

This feeling
Is already not right
I try my best to save it
Some of the
Considerate feelings that should have been given
I didn't give
You pout
The dream you made is very petty and low
We're compromising
I neglected you
All you wanted was someone to be with you

This feeling
Is already not right
I only understand at the very end
The pages of the
Plot I can't bare to turn over
You are very tired
You recite
You cried for me a few times
You're so languished
And I'm heartbroken, you're suffering
Your beauty
I'm not worthy of it

It's a well written lyrics. Meaningful
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A long day yet a great day. If everyday is the same, if there is more time for me to create moments. I really miss each day. specially you.

I wonder why I always choose not to tell you what my hearts is saying, if you could read my mind aloud.

I deeply in my heart I liked you, everyday i wish i could see you, or a little msg can lighten up my day.

I try to show you my feelings slowly in someway around.
To let you know, I really like you.
This is what I want to tell you personally

What can I do?
Totally stressed out ^^
Trying to figure out what to do..

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Although a short day out is also a great day for me,
I can never expect more, just to have a minute more with you.
Looking forward to tomorrow, I should tell her.
Better to know then to regret, hiding a feeling can never bring happiness.

You did enlighten me, many things I did was corrected and I change to another person.
I used to be a more inner person, now more to a outgoing person.
I EMO a lot in the past now, seldom see me in such state now.

Hmm I think I just missed a chance, a hint to do thing i should do. I'm still shy.
But from the few hours there, I'm thinking alot, what should I do and what should I say. I just got mute when I face you. haha silly me.

*I wasn't looking but I was thinking, when is the day?

Random thoughts.

As i watch people walk by, especially couples.
I wonder how is it like to be like them?
I've long forgotten the feeling, too long to remember.

Another side I've seen, often.
quarreling couples, what are they thinking at that moment?
Even it isn't me, it still hurts to see those scenes.

They say promises are meant to keep.
I kept but in the end, I felt tears coming down my cheeks.
I wonder why? How long ago did I cried for a girl?

I gave myself 3 years, to stand up, the wounds have healed.
It still leaves the scars. Now the scars are merely memories.
memories that aren't important to remember.
I know I can overcome the ordeal, I did it!

What you said are true.
To let it go or not. Is the only problem we ourself have to face.
Friends can only help you up not emotionally and mentally.

3 years is a long time, I manage to come back a new person.
All thanks to you. =)

Everything never happed before in the past.
Today is another new day!

I reminisces those time.
As i sat back and thought. I'm really happy again. As in real happy!
It's a precious moment.

A feeling so clear that he doesn't have to courage to show her how he really like her.
His friends told him, she's would be ready to accept it.
But he still lack the courage. All he can do is to stay at a distance, watching her...

Yet he know the longer he delay, the chances that she would be taken by others.
That's what he's afraid of. He told himself everyday that he can make it.
In the end, he forced himself to show his real feelings.

The special day is coming soon, he's thinking of a way to confess to her. But can he do it? A Valentine he wanted so much is to be really with her together.

read the past, know something more.
You're not silly, you gave your best but he didn't treasure it.
You sat there and think while tears rolled down your cheeks.
A tear you can't hold back anymore.
But gave yourself a smile at last.

it's true, feelings fade but memories stay, it's a painful process to overcome.
happy to know that you finally put the weight down.

I felt that LOVE,
is Everyone's fear,
Very much to know,
Emotions,
Life,
Yourself and should you love again the Next day.

I really missed the time together.
U said a phrase, So near yet so far. Ya true for me.
I treasure the time together.

mistake done in the past are the lesson to be learned today.
regrets remembered are to be forgotten and continue on, no point clinking on.
But I have fears, for what I know now I've fallen for you.
I have chosen the path I shd walk, just that the junction to meet you is not there yet.
till I finally dare to tell you.

miss ya..

chinese new year is coming! means fats and sleepless nights hahas.. but its okie.. i can get some money this years for bike =) haha..

then valentine's day..? hmm is it going to be a boring, shocking, loving or romantic day for me? with or without someone special? haha who knows?
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I cut my hair again now realli very buang.., hais i also dunno why my teacher think that my hair too long.., long meh? I think still damn short lo..

haha buang liao sia.. haiss..
why even the stupid ITE also must cut short hair one sia.., na bei.. not first tym alrdy lo.., nvm la if tmr i go sch he still say i sure dulan one.. knn i waste 10$ to cut this buang hair style then he still knn cannot i sure jus walk out then go home..

ok la much happen today.., shd end here=)
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went to bugis to meet eve,zh,myra.., met them about 3+ then go makan till 4+ then go to the fountain area to see JAY!!
Jay look more shui then in his photos laa.. damn shui sia.. hahas
he look totally different.. its was realli fun there =)


See jay playing the basketball game..


JAY!! ZHOU JIE LUN haha but the pic very blur cos 2.0 megapix.
cant blame me hahas..
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Random today.., tired,
very awkward, very hmm blank? on top of that comes a little bit of happiness.