I find people work so hard just to pay their bills and often forget to remember that they aren't working for themselves anymore. Condos, cars and credits cards are no longer luxury they became a burden in lives. The living lifestyle are increasing more and more but surprisingly some people out there are living for the pleasure which is admirable.

They party all night long, zoom their fast cars, and liquor, wine and steak as their snacks. These people have their minds set that no matter how much you earn you still need to spend it so why not work smart nor hard and pay bills and stuff but pay bills that they indulge in.

I wonder how far ahead will be our turn to have this kind of privileges. I can say the "C" aren't anymore I want is 4 "T's". Tattoo, Tattoo gun, Tattoo shop and Tattoo convention. Sound crazy but I know there are people out there like me.

haha what the hell am I thinking.. oh gosh! I think sooner or later I'm gonna get crazy. haha crazy-ness, saving money for bike prac ler. so need to smoke less. =)

I wonder whats wrong with getting a bike license. I'm not going to get a bike so soon ma. it not like i'm going to die after getting the license. wtf!

good people come and go, that's damn true. many people in my life come and goes some might stay along some went away.

they think that staying in state that there is no past, present or future isn't going anywhere for them. so they choose to go to either present or future.

I'm such a person too, your language used to talk to me is kinda mean at times, I sometime wonder what am i to you? I'm i some kind of dog? and I ain't no horse nor I have a long face.

I really choose to go away. I'm tired already, so just stop it. please.

had a great day today, it's nic's birthday. happy birthday bro!
woke up around 9+ and its raining then louis called to meet in the bus then we met on the bus along with jason reach there around 10+ 11. then louis said we're buy condom for nic present. I was like huh condom why would he need it for i laugh haha ya in the end we bought 3 boxes.

went to arcade to play awhile then nic and gang came. then keong n kenny went to buy another 3 boxes of condom lolz...

then go K box. oh gosh its so damn cold in it laa..
snap a few photo in there too.

I'm tired and I felt sick. It felt like it coming out from my throat. Those yucky feeling. gross!

Life seems to be so different to me now. Late in the night I eagerly await for the next day to arrive. When I shut my eyes, I being to imagine what person I will be tomorrow? What will I be? Who knows?

Everyday passes like running water, in 39 more days its another new year. I felt tired sometime, as i see through the day it got better sometime. Perhaps I no longer feel the fun in life now. Whatever going to happen no I'm going to face it with a smile. Whatever ending it is I'm going to get over it.

I did better find myself 1 or 2 down lines if not I'm not going to survive. Many events coming up for this 3 months so I need some extra cash aside. Well good luck to me.

I so happy that I met lots of my lost contacted friends in sunshine.. I'm so damn surprise hahas.., seeing them so successful makes me wanna be like them.

So I'm going to work hard with them to archive want i want in life =))

So i guess gonna get rid of the bad habits.

Once is gone is gone there no use coming back. I tried hard to salvage it but all the thing that is done can't be undone. Removing the trust. I'm not someone that like to be controlled, chaining me up will only cause more harm to yourself.

And lastly and I hope you will remember it hard, a slight tease will do, don't go overboard.
It's over.

Don't assume that you try to understand me, cos I'm not the guy that will tell everything. But since I'm a bastard to you then so be it, I'm a bastard anyway, that's fine with me I don't care and I don't wanna know also.

This isn't a game for kids, maybe you didn't know what you did wrong, but do think about it.

I think my parents becoming to trust me lesser.. I'm so disappointed. What to do?

Just by looking into my phone msg is already not trusting me, I dunno why, how am i going to continue to live such a life. Right here i trying my best to give them my best. But.. sigh, I got so many things to do in life, cant they just believe me more.

I learned a lesson today, and my parents are seeing them as on FEAR. as in False Evidence Appearing Real.

When I'm keeping quiet means keep away from me.
When i look moody means I'm normal.
When I'm looking happy something is wrong.
When I'm bored mean come nearer to me.
When I yawn mean I wanna smoke..

Hmm I wonder why?

I think I'm taking another course next yr.. I'm looking for visual arts course or maybe some other course that basically teaches some drawing and stuff. And I'm gonna retake my bike license again. I have to stand back up to overcome my fears..

Ha ha not afraid of pain but afraid of failure. Wish me luck once again.
So will be starting my new life alrdy, for the sake of my future, my own tattoo parlor, own bike and own house.

Let's OWN!

Now I'll be alone with nobody supporting me. take care Wilson=)

I hope i can make it out good..
I can't forgot what I promised you and now i wish I wanna to try all over again.

May Sunshine Shine on me

The purpose of me doing things that others thinks that is not really socially accepted, but i wanna show them is not what I want them to look at me but how I'm willing to accept them as someone different.

I'm thinking differently because there is no use to force them to accept people like me. Them see me as a hooligan or a gangster whereas I should treat them with respect so that They will change their thinkings.

Everything I've done has a purpose but my family and friends didn't know quite well why I'm doing this. I want to be accept as an enchanted personality, or rather physically different.

And lastly I wanna intro, to my finest tattooist Aelvin, I'm impress by every of his art pieces, they bring out different feeling and meaning to each of his tattoos he made. People may not think he's good enough but to me he's the best!

Thanks Ael =) U made me a different person.

if u could only know whats the pain i'm going thru now...

it doesn't mean i don't care. . . or treat it as nothing. Things i understand will be told in my heart.

I'm a very simple minded person, i know what i want and what i wanna do. But i also dun wanna to be treated lik an idiot.
a joke told once or twic can be funny but thrice the point isn't there anymore.