Its just another rainy day, it bring back some memories that made me smile and some heart aching. The story are meant not to be told and to be forgotten, they kept coming across my mind, every pass seconds I remembered everything I've forgotten.

I remember telling everything to you asking you to forgive me. But you were to too tired to listen to my bullshits, you know i never meant to lie. It was just another meaningless remark, or rather casual message.

I don't blame you for anything now, I'm just regretting why I didn't told what i really want to say to you, I kept my silence. I love to you never died i never dared to speak to you again because i'm afraid i would said anything that will affect out friendship deeper.

Until now, i never failed to remember you, all i want now is to concentrate on what's going to happen now then to press on what happened before.

From the day I was born, I never experience a pain so hurtful then the one i had in my heart. Superficially or memorially? I can get up from a fall but i can't get up after i fell together with my heart, emotionally setback. I need to get up myself, independently, cover ups can't make me want to bring me closer to you again