the day you went away, i pray for your safety. You might not be near by but i always kept you close to me. I never forget how we started, those were in loving memories. Honestly, i can't accept another relationship. I will give up until you have given up.
I tired to open my heart to people close to me, they never take me seriously. what i wanted they just made a fun out of it. Seriously i can't take this kind of things. I can take jokes for once or twice but more i find it hard to accept.
Because of what I've done, i made people around me feeling rather disappointed or worried. Example, i did a tattoo on my leg, but my family accept it. Who i loved in the past also made them feel disappointed, i cant find the reason why they are so? perhaps I'm to immature? thinking that i will cause trouble to them? if thats so i guess they can put a 99 hearts down. I know what i'm doing and will it affect me in future i know it well. I choose thing that suits me well.
Talking about relationship, i guess i have not given up on you thou. People tried to love me but i never accept, on the other hand it made me felt like a bad person, am i causing someone to be heartbroken? i didn't give them false hope and i did tell them before, love cant be forced but to be found. Sights give false image, but senses can never be wrong. It's a long period of time through understanding then you can almost realize how a person is like. It isn't a days job.
I also can find any girl on the street and say that I love you but what do think they will say? I can bet 9.5/10 of girls will give you a slap or a kick in your nuts. lmao. it's true. Don't count those that you know them cause they know you're joking.
But i get jealous of other people, to see how loving they are, how they cared about each other and how much they put through. I never really experience that before.
Life is stressful. . .
Because there is a thing called love.
Sometime i wish i can find peace in life. I have grown tired of such noisy life, maybe i need to take a break.
Things that you wish less will come more often, whereas the more u wish for never comes.
All I ever wanted is you.
I need to sharpen up my drawing skills cos the first step to be a good tattooist is to have good drawings. I only have less then half of it, i must buck up more. So i hope by starting on simple picture to improve on the curves and straights, but my hand keeps shaking when I'm drawing making more difficult for me to control.
Secondly, I need to have more inspiration and need to think quick. My ideas often comes from doing nothing, and i hope to learn more from Aelvin in the coming days. Will be needing his help to guide me.
Third, i need to have confident if not i can never be an tattooist.
Then in the morning after I done running then I'll start practicing, from now onwards i will start to clear things i have not done then I'll have more time to practice.
hmm let's see tribal or graphic picture are simpler to draw.
I think the hardest thing for me to let go which is love but i didn't expect to know that HE is such a person.
If i ever broke with a girl it will take me a very long time to get over it, but for him it's like the next day if found someone new. Sad case? Ya it is a sad one, i pity them both actually, who would have thought this will happen.
But anyway I never wanted to bother bout this matter cos i have an issue to solve myself.. STRESS!
yay finally had my tiger done alrdy..
i know alots of naggin and scolding will follow.. haha but i know what i'm doin cos i love wad i'm doing
thanks aelvin for the beautiful tattoo u have done.
how does real love taste lyk? i nv taste before..? how is it felt? neither do I. for what i can say now.. let it go or u wanna keep it. u decide.
i know lettin go is difficult but keepin a broken life is even more difficult so think bout it..
Gimme me a lil'love!!
wahaahaa oh gosh i'm going crazy alrdy i'm hope to bring forward the session cos on thur unexpectedly i got something on. but anyway i just so excited then also anxious .. hais what will i be after this day?
but when one mind is set then no turning back, i just wanna let ppl know what i like and i love doing it.
I wanna work, work, work and WORK!!
earn many many money.., then aelvin can help me put many many tattoo WAHAHA!!
So excited thur is comin! finally ! new tattoo meanin new life =) god plz bless me wif many many tattoo !!!
haha i sound so childish...
A woman need a day to understand but a man need a lifetime to understand a woman.
Their mind is like a a scatted pieces of jig saw puzzle. You may see a picture but not the whole picture of it.
Man's mind is just like a photo. Everything is printed on it understandable and simple.
Just a thought i came across, average men and women.
Geez! 4 more days
Its just another rainy day, it bring back some memories that made me smile and some heart aching. The story are meant not to be told and to be forgotten, they kept coming across my mind, every pass seconds I remembered everything I've forgotten.
I remember telling everything to you asking you to forgive me. But you were to too tired to listen to my bullshits, you know i never meant to lie. It was just another meaningless remark, or rather casual message.
I don't blame you for anything now, I'm just regretting why I didn't told what i really want to say to you, I kept my silence. I love to you never died i never dared to speak to you again because i'm afraid i would said anything that will affect out friendship deeper.
Until now, i never failed to remember you, all i want now is to concentrate on what's going to happen now then to press on what happened before.
From the day I was born, I never experience a pain so hurtful then the one i had in my heart. Superficially or memorially? I can get up from a fall but i can't get up after i fell together with my heart, emotionally setback. I need to get up myself, independently, cover ups can't make me want to bring me closer to you again
haha so happy can.. jus now went TTS find aelvin he say comin nex thur he's doin my leg tattoo ler WAHAHA!! so excited la.. =) then after then hope to find 1 part tym job to earn abit to suit my hobby needs =)
omg i realli cant wait to hav aelvin tattoo the tiger.. long await dream comin true =) wee okie goin to slp alrdy
good nite =)
finally its holiday!! but still need to go sch for 1 last day!! for the project.. oh gosh we are so late ..
all my fault guy i brought the wrong presentation, if not tmr also need not come to sch.
This sunday mayb goin to sentosa wif my calssmates =) hoping to see some bikini babes @.@ haha. let enjoy !
then nex tue is MY DEAREST BRO B'DAY!!! need to get ya smt hmm. well dunno see bout it. AIYO i jus to excited to hear bout my tattoo =) excited until i cant get to sleep wahahaha.
hmm then lastly i sometime dun get it, when i wants it i get nothing, when i don't want it it jus come.. hmm haha then 2 person thought i'm a tattoo artist alrdy asking me to tattoo for them well too bad i still can't need wait to get my "License" but nvm i still can draw.
6 years since the terrible attack on the WTC. Let us spare 1minute of our time and mourn for the lost of the people who lost their loved ones.
Time can ease the on skin, the heart can never heal, leaving a deep scar. Bleeding still.
oh god .. i'm feeling so dead, okay today the first day of exam.., i studied.. BUT!!! the question came out are mostly different frm wad i did in the revision papers. even my class's smartest kid don't realli know how to do it.. oh gosh. SO DEAD CAN!!
tmr the last day then i can GO INTO SLEEP MODE! haha but still hoping to work to earn some income for my coming tattoos sessions. so excited la...!
i was hoping to do a full body one after my NS, so i think biking is a no alrdy, i'm jus afraid then if accident will ruined the tattoos=) cars better least not so unprotected, well mayb?
not i'm jus waiting for the tiger tattoo to be ready woo oho need to go down to check it out. hope mama wouldn't over react. kies gonna go eat n SLEEP!
haha okay guy i'm not at home but not telling where i'm..
okay when to check up on my tiger tattoo.. was goin great.. ard nex wk would be done i hope so..
haha okay aelvin ask this "please whack me question" to his customer.., what's the different between a grain of rice and a piece of nose shit.. ?
haha if any1 wanna try or know the ans pls tag yah.. haha no prize but juz a fun of it. take care guys and peace out!
sometime i'm confuse when i see wads happen now.. it looks fake but things u told me are sweet and promising. leaving me no room to fight.
then on the other hand, i seem to be doing a bad deed, i'm lyk bring a person down with me.
hais life is so full of puzzles.
i don't what i didn't wrong.. i just don't why i'm gettin all the scolding. from one thing to another. I'm very tired . god just take me away from this world...!!!!
haha ytd culbbin was a boring one. haha waited very long for the climax part to come din get so high as john.. oh gosh i can say he's good. then saw drag queen again loLz , and it was SO PACKED IN THERE!!! i think alice johan n john can stand the heat loLz well me too hahas.
we din drink ytd cos johan was sick so we jus dance away..,
haha well that bout all.. cya